Let’s Get Real…

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CROSS is a pen name. My real name is David M. Coleman. I am autistic, bipolar, and have some mild symptoms of Tourette’s. I’ve spent the last ten years dreaming of living in a van, but due to circumstances, have been unable to make any progress with my goals.

At 18 I lived with my dad, who couldn’t help me get a driver’s license as he was too busy. Still is the case. At 24 I moved in with my mom and stepdad. I worked for a while, but eventually they decided to get me on Social Security and have me quit work. They’re both content with me collecting SSI and not getting a job or learning to drive.

I had an epiphany recently. I visited my uncle in Alabama, and he made it very clear that everyone around me has basically taken advantage of my disabilities so they can collect. Nobody has helped me get anywhere near my dreams. Now I’m 28. I will be thirty in January of 2026.

In order for me to make even the smallest step towards my goals, I need to get away from this living situation. The problem is, I have nowhere to go. I have few friends, none of which are capable of helping me in this way. The only other family lives in Alabama, and I can’t move there for a variety of reasons.

I’m not really sure what to do at this point. I feel useless. I feel like my dreams are falling apart before my very eyes, and there’s absolutely nothing I can do about it.

Let’s Get Real…

Writer CROSS
Published Jun. 9, 2024
License CC BY-NC-SA 4.0